Emotion & Expectations

I went into the doctor office with not a glimpse of an idea that I have prostate cancer. When the doctor explained that, my emotions went way down. So far down that I did not listened what he had to say at all. My emotional system was shutting down. On the way home I realized that there is always another way to do things. What the doctor wanted was an operation ASAP to cut out the prostate cancer. My ex father in law had an operation and it turned out not good at all. From continuing infections, to adding a plastic tubing for peeing, removing it later, putting a valve in the tubing. It was a mess.

Is there another way of doing things, that is the question?

My decision was to try to go with Ivermectin and Fenbendazole to see if the PSA number goes down and maybe the prostate cancer goes away or gets stalled or slowed down so my time on earth is extended. One can hope.

Learning and being responsible for yourself.

Being suddenly fully responsible for the prostate cancer outcome puts a lot of stress on my emotions. Every time I go to take a PSA test the stress goes up and down. One asks a lot of questions to see if that decision was the correct one, or could I have done a better one with the current knowledge.

Are you sure you are going the right path?

I am never 100% sure. But I do the best I can and keep moving forward, correcting any perceived mistakes and see what I have to do to get to a better place on this green earth.

Have a lot of question.

There is always an inner struggle going on between the expectations and what the next test result is. One is also more aware of other people cancer stories. I am asking more questions than ever about friend’s story and the actual factual facts. Now you compare other people cancer stories with your truth and find out how much time is left. That changes your emotion and interest what you are doing with the rest of your life.

Norby

Read my diary for yourself.
https://psacancerbegone.com/prostate-cancer-diary-part1/
The truth only, NO BS.

See the chart (Timeline) for yourself.
https://psacancerbegone.com/chart-fenbendazole-meds/
The truth only, NO BS.

Links for Exploring what can be done.
https://psacancerbegone.com/links-for-exploring-what-can-be-done/
The truth only, NO BS.

Good Links for repurposed drugs
https://psacancerbegone.com/good-links-for-repurposed-drugs/
Go for it, Find better palaces to order.